Gettin' ma angst on

[winterkoninkje]

So I've been gone a very long time once again. It's seeming become a habit more than exception. But for now, this note from across the sea of three thousand miles of corn and desolate housewives.

So I finally got my stuff tuesday, quite a bit late, but all arrived intact. I got to unpacking the bulk of it yester morning, which was nice. Nice to have those helpful trinkets to hand, instead of constantly thinking "I have just the thing for this... in a truck floating over the arkansiatic". The kitchen'll need rearranging now, but I have all my cooking gear and spices!

So the morning was good, productive, got up early. And then, just after a nice lunch (an experimental stirfry of fivespice and turmeric) I checked my email and read an offensive comment by someone I thought a friend. Now, most y'all know me, know my mild temperament rarely angers. And barring one day when anonamyst saw me come home, I don't think any of you have ever seen me furious. I don't get furious. Outraged sure, upset now and again, angered on special occasion. But then, I don't generally have people insulting my life experiences, life choices. Even the conservative who would dismiss them ununderstanding doesn't do this, or if they gab behind my back they certainly have the decency not to say it to my face.

Shortly after, in the midst of writing the first version of this post fueled by that fury, my dearest came home. And like a balm to calm the nerves and soothe the burn, doing nothing she melted it away. There's a voice in the back of my head wonders whether I should beware that skill of hers. But deep down, I think everyone wants to be charmed. The eyes of a serpent, the smile of a saint, everyone wants to fall in, to see if the dream is as sweet as the promise.

Comments

[schrendymae.livejournal.com]

Glad to hear from you... Sorry to hear about the harsh comment. Things like that suck, especially when they come from someone you thought was your friend.

I agree with you that everyone wants to be charmed... I also think that deep down everyone wants to be the charmer.

I miss you my friend. I hope that you stay in touch.